What follows is an exercise in processing thought on-the-fly. I've been discussing with my pal Andrey about how the blogging itself had become a testament to tedium, not often worth more than a tape recorder into which one narrates his daily tasks. There was no creativity to be seen in the reflection of the day's activities. Rather than report on my whereabouts throughout the day, I'd prefer to devote more of this space to creativity, or at least insightful commentary. As it happens, I often feel like my most inspired dialogue is with 'Drey. It frustrated me, because he was getting to hear everything I wished I was capable of making public.
About that time, the idea hit me. I'm going to post my conversation with Andrey, with his comments removed. All you'll see is that I'm saying. You'll have to guess as to what he's said to me, based upon how I react. Surprisingly, there was an uncanny flow and poetic aspect to the passage, despite the stringing together of only my half of the conversation. Here is a snapshot of my mind at work, amidst the dynamic changes that occur during Andrey's systematic prodding of my psyche: (names have been removed to protect the identities of the innocently involved)
always do ;-)
worked from 11am to 8:20pm
then went home, changed,
met her and her friends at a carnival in Rush
we were there 'till midnight or so
not too many
no opportunities for juice
I found out that her ravenous appetite for fried food rivals even mine
and she's so cute about it
we definitely have chemistry, still
we had a great time together at work today
after the carnival ended, we went our separate ways, since she was going straight to bed
I went over to a friend's and met up with sleeping people and a bunch of us watched 'secret window'
not seen it?
it's a decent flick
very stephen king-ish
umm, what the fuck?
firefox new version just installed
and now it refuses to run
oh wait, there it goes
the computer's just slpw
and my fingers are sticky
'course, it's been running for 30 days or so
well, I'm glad I do it
it's tedius sometimes
because I only seem to do it around this time of night
after I'm exhausted
and thinking to myself about the extensive plans for the following day
tomorrow I drive to Pennsylvania
so tonight I don't feel like writing tons about what I did today
that's the thing...
it' mainly been more of an activities log lately,
with a touch of feelings on the side
what I wish it were, were something more dynamic
like, "hey, I thought of a song lyric, here it is"
or "this insightful thing came to me in a fit of randomness"
yes, I have
but that was once out of the 20-something entries I've done
true, it is
I just wish it were fewer facts, more flavor...
to adapt a line from 'big fish'
no, I mean... well, more colorful content
more poetic in one sense,
more intangible in another
rather than relaying the course of my day, I'd rather use this as a place to store creative energy
in greater supply
and perhaps a reference to whatever real-life-of-kevin inspirations to which that fiction is rooted
often times, I feel like pasting our conversations into it
because what I say to you is what I wish it looked like more often
there's an idea
hmm. And now, Andrey's text:
blogger is fixed it seems
also, check my latest entry
I saw 9/11 today, i'm still working on the entry for that one;-)
how was your day/night?
I passed by there!
so give me all the juicy details;-)
but I'm sure you had a million thought processes running
that's the new Johnny Depp film?
I've been gunshy about new movies lately for some reason.
not attacking them with the verve I used to.
been waiting for the "all clear" so to speak
I love the Mozilla group
so tell me..
what do you think of blogging - call it a month in review
but you've had that before...
I think it's dynamic because it represents how you feel the moment you publish
you mean randomness?
I too wish for more of that...
maybe that's part of the challenge we're laid out for ourselves. to reach down [or back] and recall the millions of inspirational moments that strike us throughout the day
i'm glad we're on the same page with this blog thing
what you said about wanting it to be "more than just facts". I've felt the same way. I want it to be a reflection of Myself and my experiences, not just a regurgitation of the nightly news
I feel like I can't let myself go, like I can't tap into the creativity that I know is within me.
in fact [as you also said], this and many of our conversations are exactly what I want in my blog.
Go ahead, try to piece it together :)